Did i mention the Papayas? This morning's breakfast

Papaya drowning in black milk.  Black milk you say?  Comes from a cows quintiple nipple, but has black rice, black soy bean, black sesame, black pine seed, and blackberry.  And for drink: 1 water, 1 coffee, 1 red puer tibetan (Yunan) tea, and 1 TCM tea of honey, chrysanthemum, pear concentrate and other stuff.

Again, facebookers, sorry i cant comment back, these notes are sent to blog via gmail (the great firewall of China has that leak).  U can send me email if u want at skronger@yahoo.com cuz gmail don werk good here.  Google got their fat USA ass kicked outtta China and are dying a slow death, like a duck with its neck slit.  They have the same attitude as USA dimwit republicans who punched a huge hole in the hull of a ship called USA.  Could someone please wipe their whole political system off the face of the planet and start again?  O yea, some is already trying.  Am i flappin politics again?  DOHHHH!  See, i like the USA, i can say DoooHHH!  The USA will survive if and only if someone not only wipes the chess board clean, rather burns it...start all over again.  A new election system that doesnt elect BOZO's.  Actually, i head Canada's prime (haha...prime HAHAHA!!) minister got fired.  Nice.  Now he and Bush can have gay-sex in peace.

Where did my breakfast talk go.  Anyways my facebook secret service tell me Drage, Trien, Tracey (Norman-Bennett), Mike sage-Craig-Brownrigg, Heidi, and Terry commented, and i see the comments here as send via Blackberry to my skype....howz that for WWW connection?  All i gut to say is scooby doo drew a doobie frum Ruby's booby n patooeyed his chewy n puffed enuf t get right gooeyed.

Drage, i dumped the Tascam 2488 recording machine.  Bought protools and an MBox jus 4 i left Cnada.  Man,this protools is huge learnin curve....hope to be back on the song by summer's end.  But protools on computer compared with the tascam, its like a 3.4$ Chinese blind person massage/hour (which i get regular here and is frikin superb massage!) compared with a slap in the face by a bare Arnold swartznayger hand after diggin Bathurst clams for 2 weeks in -20 degree weather.

For a deeep song, i mean lyrically deep thinking, download Nymfo's "Good Fuckin' Big Dick".  We can still legally steal music in Canada right?

I try to attach a few pictures today...see how far they make it.....

AHA! I sit in the abyss here of facebooklessness, so i thought.

Listenin to Tom waits - I dont wanna grow up, eatin baked soynuts, huge-assed beans and baby peas in ground red pepper powder and monosodium glutamate, one at a tyme with chopsticks, n ponder uv wut my muther jus told me.  She say i posted somethin on facebook....i says whaaaaa?  Oh right, now i remembers i say t meself, was testin to see if i could post to blog by sending email to blog, even though my blog is blocked in China.  And so it did.  And i fergut that i connected my blog with facebook.  So it seemz i better go read what i just splayed open to the world. 

Oh shit.  Doooh!  Ok allow me to finish the most important "half sentence".  ".......who have no clue".   And now to finish that sentence here ".....who have no clue about what they want to do".  What this meant was/is not no clue as in stupid.   Far from the case as i consider them both much brighter than I.  I mean, precisely because of outside pressures they are unable to make the decision most suitable for them.  Just like i, who after 45 years finally started to get on track.....but thats a long story of my fault.

So, whereas the whole world can see my test-blog-post, the old internet lesson is learned but yet again, be careful when you push the send key.  In fact, i dont give a fuck.  Regarding the jobs, decision will be made this weekend long b4 any stick can beat my noggin.

By the way, any of you interested in this subject, you will see a St. Andrews boy, and i really mean BOY, Mark Henderson, has created a self-copyrighted course, now being given at UNB St John exactly on this subject and here is the link if you wanna check it out http://rulesofengagement.info/index.html .

Anyone comment on my facebook, i will see those comments eventually, maybe February 2012 or earlier when i zip out of China for a bit.  Otherwise if you really wanna comment me to see, you'd have to do that on my blog and i think that goes to my email.

Ok, back to the mangos, pineapple, strawberries, apples, oranges, and gogi berries.  So now i can be a faceless facebooker.

HOW TO DECIDE

The "why move" is a good question, and i have been working very hard at answering that question, to the extent of creating a quasi computer model to serve people like i or young people such as my nephew and niece who have no clue.  Well for now, its just for me because i change so much.

Its quite complicated for me to manipulate how to choose, but that is not what you asked, well, actually it fits the same model.  How do i choose and why are the same thing i guess.  Last night i got something up and running but since its...well ok i just saved it as a pdf file....its not pretty, but have a peek at the pdf attachment.  The picture is broken, like an unfinished picture puzzle.

I attach it...it did not save very well but if you look at the pdf file you might get the idea of what i am trying to do.  Please keep in confidential because in fact i think if i can develop it it may have "self-help book" potential especially for the late high-school demographic.  However, if you can see where i am heading with it, many of life's values don't appear in our minds until later, and in fact they are continually changing, so should apply to all ages.  This graphic thing i am trying to make can actually show that already but not in a clear way to you or other people.

So, with this rudimentary thingmabob, i can answer the question for me, but to explain it...well, i better try now because i would have to, were it a book.

Hmmm...this is my first try.... 

Ones' personal values about her/his life are a never ending and changing collage of colors over the 100 years we are given to enjoy (give or take 50).  They are a range of brightly colored stalactites and stalagmites in a globular cave in which a thinking animal can sit and contemplate its life.  If viewed in time sequence from the day of birth to the end, new values appear, some disappear only to resurface at a later time, and some fade for this person's ever.

Plato projected shadows on a cave, in 1970 we had overhead projectors that we could overlay, today i have an apple computer which i can use to overlay almost in movie style, these values of my life.  Lots of problems exist however, such as we are forever self deceiving about our values, or i mean it is hard to be truthful about what we really like because of societal pressures to make us feel otherwise about our desires.

This is 2011.  I can focus on my values at this time and can not really predict how they will change next year, so i will act on the now.  If i can get to the point of having my cave of colored stalactites represent my now in life, the "decision" set up can be done.  One just has to take the 1 or more new life-options and show this: "How, if i were in the NEW situation, does the new situation satisfy my list of "NOW" values.  The now is not the new.  The now is my present situation (job, girlfriend, place to live etc) and the new is, well, for my present example, my new possible jobs, of which i must decide within a month.

My now is Harbin and the Harbin institute of Technology.  My news are 2, one beig Hainan University in Haikou, Hainan, the other is SiChuan University in ChengDu, SiChuan.  I must first create a "picture" of each of these places, a cave of colors so to speak.  Then, i must overlay as in the old style overhead projector my now with the news.

This overlay can be done in a rudimentary way with what i have created so far, but its a long way from "user-friendly".  For myself, i can use it to make the present decision and to answer your question.  Among the reasons I must leave are 1) availability of Philosophy students to chat with 2) the demographics of my classroom students, 3)  Love in my life in general 4) environmental health 5) access to mountains for hiking and inspiration 6) access to other desirable Asia travel destinations 6) ability to create and record music - un-inspirational here 7) teachers to teach me chinese 8) suitable library information for me to read 9) availability of high variety of cheap fresh fruit 10) weather 11) outdoor recreation opportunities - ocean swimming in hainan and mountains in SiChuan

So there you have it baby eyes, 11 reasons to go.  On the graphs i created, there are about 5 compelling reasons to stay in Harbin, which under normal circumstances would be, no, WAS very confusing just 2 days ago.  Now i can see it much more clearly.  If $ was as important to me as it was 30 years ago, i believe the scale would be much more difficult to tip in a southerly direction because here at Harbin U they treat us very well.  I have worked all of about 50 hours in my 7 fully paid weeks so far.  My lung infection is gone but they tell me to rest for another 2 weeks then work.  This kind of kind treatment makes leaving a hugely difficult decision to do.